♪♫Feelings Hidden in the Heart♪♫
Often times, we tend to realize that life is full of surprises. It brings us questions and uncertainties in which in our own roads in life are being answered and solved gradually. Changes, challenges, experiences and emotions are instruments of life to make us grow and to become more matured individuals. According to American Heritage Dictionary emotion is a mental state that arises spontaneously rather than through conscious effort and is often accompanied by physiological changes a feeling of joy, sorrow, reverence, hate, and love. These are the certain feelings that we individuals felt in different situation.
We usually felt the feelings of happiness when we did something that we really love, as well as when someone else did anything good to us. Whereas we felt the feelings of sadness when we didn’t attain what we want, when one of our loved ones had passed away or either when we miss our special someone. Broken Chains, growing pain and sad melody could make us feel sad. For me the feelings of happiness and sadness are the most essential kind of emotions that we usually felt inside our hearts.
As an ordinary person created by God, we all fall into what they call Love. We are all looking for a perfect partner whom we could share the rest of our life, but we all know that falling in love involves various emotions. Emotions that might help us mature emotions that might give us inspirations.
I’ve been in this wonderful world for almost 18years. In this life, I know that I still have a long journey to take, long distance to travel, a lot of battle to win and so many lessons to learn in order to continue walking into the wonderful world of life. Now, let me speak for my emotions, let me sing from the soul and let me open-up my feelings hidden in the heart.
I have been known by the people around me as a simple, friendly and jolly individual. They often see me smiling and laughing, that’s why sometimes they don’t even bother to ask how I am...They always think that I’m always happy and no problem could penetrate me. Well, I thin that was just the way they look at me because only few people knew the real me.
Because of the strong image that I portray, I have learned to hide my feelings alone, until it stops bothering me. I have learned to wear a mask every time I have to hide, not to make them believe that nothing bothered me inside but to protect myself form being upset and hurting inside. I’ve grown up not knowing how to express my emotions nor to stand for what I really love. I’m always keeping my feelings within me specially my unusual feelings to the person that I admired. It came up to the point that they think that I was really a numb…well they are all wrong for thinking thoughts like that.. It’s just that I never wanted anyone to get rid of my feelings because I don’t want to get hurt and still I’m waiting for the right time. My words are just the reverse of what I truly feel and they don’t know anything about that. Because of my fear of getting hurt I’ve never been aware that I was already hurting myself. Pretending to be strong doesn’t give any protection at all, it could only be used as an excuse but it could never cover up the real sensation that might be felt by the heart.
Even though my hidden feelings are quit emotional still I’m glad to love and to be loved. I will still continue keeping my feelings secretly and silently inside. Soon the time for me will come to be ready to show and say it to everyone.
